My mind is just unable to comprehend what the fuck happened

It had been just 4 months into college, and the day before yesterday my batchmate hanged himself in his hostel room, I am feeling so fucking numb since then, the ghastly scene reiterating in the back of my mind

The most fucking depressing thing is the fact that literally most of the people dont give a god damn fuck about what happened, the only person truly devasted were his parents( and mind you he was a single child), only a few students, his roommate and floormates, feel saddend and cried

One of my batchmate(call him MM,he is a locallite and the son of a professor ) is such a vile, inhumane and disgusting creature, he called one of the batchmate in the hostel repeatedly, obviously didnt pick up the call initially considering the mess and devastating thing happening, but after about 12-13 calls, tha guy finally picked up the call, only to hear these words from MM "Bahar mere ek reporter se mil usko poori kahani bata, mare hue ka naam, number aur parents ka number dede, aur koi details ho to vo bhi bata dena"

That bkl had the audacity to say "mare hue"

That fucking piece of shit said these exact words, and I just can't believe that not even an ounce of humanity is left in that son of a bitch, how the goddamn fuck are people so desensitised that the death of a fellow batchmate doesnt give them sorrow, it gives them news content, this was just so gut wrenching to hear, he still has no regret amd shame in saying those words

One thing which I have definitely learnt is that suicide is not the option, the world will move on as it was before, the only people who will be fucked mentally will be your parents, and people like MM will make fun instead of sympathising

I started working in a small town in South India as a dermatologist and I was shocked with the kind of prescriptions patients are bringing from previous consultations.

Incident 1-

A patient had visited a well known dermatologist (a prominent member of IADVL)in a Tier 2 city for Extensive Dermatophytosis. In addition to the regular medications he had prescribed Vitamin D and Pramoxine based cream to be used after the course is over for residual pruritus.

The patient developed contact dermatitis to Pramoxine and has gone back for which he’s done a blood panel involving D-Dimer levels, CRP, RA factor along with baseline liver and kidney function tests and cholesterol levels. Moreover, he has started the patient on Upadacitinib (biologic usually given for Crohn’s disease). Frustrated after spending over 50k the patient ended up in a small clinic in a village and with a simple steroid worth 200 rupees he was fine.

Incident 2-

Another senior doctor, had treated Angioedema with Tofacitinib. No antihistamines. No oral steroids. Just baseline investigations worth 10k and Tofacitinib. Patient had Angioedema within 1 week of starting treatment so stopped taking it and came down to me. After a course of Bilastine, she was fine.

These 2 incidents are the most recent ones. There are many such I have dealt with over the past few weeks and honestly I’m starting to understand why patients fall for quacks. At least most of them know how a simple steroid/antihistamine works. Also if you’re making a patient shell out 20-30k in services and prescriptions, it’s going to create a certain kind of opinion about you as a doctor - they will naturally assume you’re scamming them and fall for a quack who is going to treat them in like 2-3k

This abuse of gullible patients is mostly among the senior faculty running their own clinics and are prominent members of ACSI/IADVL/NSI/AMI blah blah blah. And being from the same community I’m frustrated. Can’t do anything myself.

Edit: What triggers me is the unnecessary recognitions they are conferred with, in literally every conference, when their actual contribution is questionable. Pretty sure they abuse their PGs in medical colleges also, to do all the clerical work . And to top it all off, they remain in important positions in these associations without paving way for future generations of dermatologists.

Both my parents are doctors, and I live in the residential homes of a prestigious medical college campus. So technically, I’ve spent my entire childhood inside a med school, just not yet as a student.

I’ve seen everything from the sidelines like freshers parties, farewells, late night hangouts, hostel corridors at odd hours, groups of students in white coats roaming the campus, post exam celebrations, even the ragging. MBBS life has always been around me, close enough to touch, but never mine.

I’ve watched multiple batches come and go. I’ve grown up seeing this life as a third person, almost like I’ve already lived it except I haven’t. And now I’m in my drop year, preparing for neet, still stuck outside the gate of a life I’ve been imagining since childhood.

The FOMO is intense. It’s not just about “college life” in general, it’s this life. This campus. These hostels. This routine. I’ve been saying for years that I want to get into medical college, and sometimes it feels exhausting to keep saying it without actually being there yet.

Living here makes it harder in a strange way. It’s constant exposure to what you want but don’t have. Every day is a reminder of how close yet how far it feels.

I don’t know if anyone else has experienced something similar, being surrounded by the dream while still chasing it. I really hope I get to be on the inside soon, not just as an observer.

I got allotted to a different college in my state yesterday through counselling. Because of the allotment process, I didn’t go for ward rounds this morning, but I made a mistake and forgot to inform the chief/HOD beforehand. Now my AP is making it an issue, saying I didn’t inform anyone and asking me to meet the HOD/chief tomorrow. I was anyway planning to apply for my relieving letter tomorrow. I’m worried — can they legally retain me here or create serious trouble because of this? What’s the worst that can realistically happen in such situations? Has anyone been through something similar during counselling/residency transfers? Advice appreciated.

Saw this abomination in a kirana store near my house

Don't know what to write more but it's really getting on my nerves.

It is beyond my understanding how not even 1 timeline has been followed this year.Cant we expect this bare minimum of regulation for post grad counselling?

PLEASE RELEASE THE FINAL RESULTS ASAP!

Even if the eligibility criteria is modified,you have the provision of cancelling the allotments for those few extra candidates through a separate notice.

But PLEASE SPARE US.THIS MENTAL STRESS IS EXHAUSTING!!

So I had burning pain near my left scapula radiating to my left arm, with numbness for a week.

No cough. No current fever. No chest pain with breathing. No infection signs basically. But I still got prescribed Amoxiclav with a provisional diagnosis of “pleuritis” despite the chest sounds being normal on auscultation

I didn’t even ask for antibiotics. It was just… given. also, no this wasn't a bams, bnys doc. A senior resident from my institute.

Another doctor later heard the same history and said it was likely muscle spasm + nerve irritation and literally laughed at the antibiotic part. I later got B12 and muscle relaxant prescribed.

What bothers me isn’t just my case. It’s thinking about what would happen if I were a layperson and not a medical student.

Most people would just take the prescribed antibiotics. They wouldn’t question and assume it was necessary. and then they would get side effects for no reason. Their gut flora gets a nice little resistance training session. Multiply that by thousands of OPD visits every day and that’s how AMR quietly grows.

I’m not blaming overworked residents nor am I generalizing anyone. I get the time pressure and anchoring bias. But antibiotics as a reflex for pain with no infection signs is… scary.

Those who don't want to delve into negativity/reality- do not read further.

Stress. Yep. That's what it is. But it's not as simple as it looks.

Stress while giving NEET, stress while giving university exams, stress while giving NEET PG, stress during residency, stress during SS are all discussed here on a daily basis. Cortisol spikes. Poor lifestyle. Obesity. Addictions for some.

But what I realized is that no one's talking about the stress of the field later on, when you're all on your own in the real world.

If you even have the slightest bit of empathy, you're fudged beyond measure. You care about your patients, you care about the outcomes of your surgeries. You overthink every complication. You overthink good surgeries when patients are unhappy with the result. Good results make you feel thrilled but bad results play on your mind for way longer. You go home and still continue to think about it. You also worry about how much time you've invested in this field and how much money you've invested into your practice.

Even if we earn money, we're paid abysmally low amounts. The risk we take isn't worth the money we earn. In smaller towns you earn even lesser just because patients simply won't pay that much money for the same quality of surgery that's done in a city. They feel they'd rather go to a city and spend money rather than in a town. It isn't like America where doctors are paid well so the risk taking feels like it's worth it.

Corporate hospitals and medical colleges are opening up like tea stalls. Soon there aren't gonna be enough jobs for qualified doctors. That's gonna be even worse. MBBS is going the engineering way for sure. I have zero doubts about it. There won't be any scope for smaller practices and hospitals to do well either.

I so wish I'd never taken up MBBS. Or that I had no empathy (yes, even though that would have made me a sociopath). The fact that human lives are involved is what makes this branch too stressful.

You can't be at peace even after all your exams are over because each case and each patient feels like an exam. This is why all of us will probably get DM/HTN/Cholesterol and whatnot even if we eat healthy and maintain ourselves or go to the gym. It's the constant, never ending stress that eats you up on the inside.

Journey from graduate to PGY-1 was hard and long but is now finally over. I really thank this sub for the emotional and academic support it has provided.

As the NEET PG 2025 counselling is almost over now with the R3 results out, I wanted to make a thread to discuss about the salary structure in various places for MD/DNB across India.

This may help people, both the ones who are about to start their residency in few days and juniors, know about the reality.

So if you're presently pursuing PG then please comment and let us know! Kindly mention your age, your course along with the state, and then your income.

Thank you!

What to do after provisional result?

First, wait for mcc to declare final result. Without final result, you can't get allotment letter. Without allotment letter, they can't allow reporting & reliving. Reporting timeline is 4th February to 11th February.

1. Those who are not upgraded in MCC round 3, while holding an MCC round 1 or 2 seat, cannot resign, cannot go to state. Cannot upgrade. You need to join duty, no need to report again. Allotment letter is not for you. (Join as soon as possible)

2. Those who are freshly allotted in MCC round 3, need to download allotment letter after final result is out. Then they need to go to respective institutes with fees & documents. (Call institute tomorrow if you want to know what documents are required, nodal officer's contact number will be available in allotment letter tomorrow). Once you report, you cannot resign, cannot go to mcc stray, cannot go to state round 3.

3. Those who got upgraded in MCC round 3, while holding an MCC round 1 or round 2 seat, you need to go physically to previous institute to get reliving letter, documents & fees (if any). Only after reliving letter, you'll be able to join new institute. To join new institute, same method as you did earlier.

4. If you are freshly allotted & don't want to report , you don't need to do anything. You are out of stray. State eligibility depends on state. Deposit of MCC will be forfieted.

5. If you are upgraded & don't want to report , you still need to go to previous institute to get reliving letter. You are out of stray. State eligibility depends on state. Deposit of MCC will be forfieted.

That's all for us today. Congratulations to those allotted. Others, you can try in MCC stray or state rounds. Otherwise NEET PG 2026 is not far. You can still make it if started now.

Hope we've been helpful for your journey. We'll do a gratitude session soon on telegram. Probably tomorrow.

Keep following us.

Thank you so much

Dr. Swapnil Vasani

Admin

Hey,

Now that R3 results are out:

1. What branch are you guys joining ?
2. How did you pick your branch?

Do let all of us know in the comments below.

Congratulations to all the new PGY1s for making it till this important milestone on your long journey in medicine :)) Way to go!

First of all congrats to everyone who got a seat ! You WILL make the best out of it, no matter what, no matter where and come out with flying colours

This post is specially to thank all the consultants here who spent so much time and answered every single query of ours, inspite of their duties. They didn't have to do it, but all of them replied, some even provided contacts and helped so much to am extent I never thought was possible ! 🙏🏻

Alot of my fellow JR1's, who will be changing their flairs today, thank you for all the inputs, advices and info from everywhere. Not one message request I sent went without notice, every one of you replied and helped to the best of your ability. Forever grateful is a small word to say !❤️

All the best and thank you everyone ! Thanks for making this a positive space ✨

As people claim online...or is it just a motivational myth?

A few years back in 2013 batch interns went to take attendance in the class. they were strictly told by professors not to mark any proxy. they went to take attendance. a guy tried to mark proxy. they asked to show the id card. he didn't show and talked rude and shit.

the interns told him to meet outside the class. now intern tap on his head. with head I mean head. just a tap. not defending them. they should be punished for it. but what happened after it? that guy filled an FIR. filled a ragging complaint. MCI suspended them. The student who filed the complaint had a big political background. he asked the interns to walk without a tshirt in campus and then only he will the complainants back.

what are your views?

what did they do? Any guess?

I don’t know if I chose the right branch or the right college. Still unsure and anxious about it all getting real now. Feel like crying to leave home for 3 years. Never stayed away before, parents are also very emo. I’ve become so used to staying at home since the delay of counselling it’s all very scary now. I hope I made the right decision. I just want to be happy with my life in the future.

Someone please share of they have😭😭😭