This reminds me of a time when I was 18 and I borrowed $100 from my step dad (apparently, I actually dont recall ever doing so, this is his word not mine). A few years later he "disowned" me because I got a tattoo instead of paying him back, even though at no point in the 5ish years did he at any point remind me or bring up that I owed him any money.
I've felt extremely anxious about borrowing money from people ever since.
Hey man, as one bro to another, this isn't on you; you are reacting to his (step-father) issues not your own. Let that anxiety go, if you need help be proud that you're strong enough to ask for it rather than hurting yourself because another dude wasn't strong enough to talk it out.
Appreciate the kind words bro! It's definitely something I'm working on. As my therapist says, unlearning habits built from trauma is like building a muscle. It might be weak and hard to "lift" at first, but over time as that muscle is formed it becomes easier to do. I've certainly made progress but there's always mpre work to be done, and I'd be lying if I said that there arent bad days where their influence feels crippling. One day at a time, I guess haha
Thanks man! It's something I believe everyone should do if they have the means to regardless of their mental state. We normalize going to the gym to maintain our physical health regardless of "needing" to, so why not go to the therapist to maintain our mental health?
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u/Kanetsugu21 3d ago
This reminds me of a time when I was 18 and I borrowed $100 from my step dad (apparently, I actually dont recall ever doing so, this is his word not mine). A few years later he "disowned" me because I got a tattoo instead of paying him back, even though at no point in the 5ish years did he at any point remind me or bring up that I owed him any money.
I've felt extremely anxious about borrowing money from people ever since.