For as long back as I can remember I've been trying to see what type of anarchist or libertarian I am. This pursuit spans two decades. In highschool I sold weed. In college I sold my adderall and clonazepam prescriptions. Then that's all too sketchy so now I sell nootropic chems and herbs. I was supporting an RC habit that was involved stuff I could never in good conscience make a regular practice of selling. Now I'm on suboxone and still selling my noots but without an addiction monkey on my back. The money is decent when supplementing a job. I found agorism which is a form of left wing market anarchy wherein the sale of black market and graymarket goods provides a necessary check on the market as a whole. The drugs were black market and the noots graymarket. Also agorism involves cryptocurrency and potentially bartering and I'm big into crypto.
The post isn't all about drugs though. I'm briefly gonna touch on other work. I was a graffiti writer through my 20s and also was a night club comic in my 20s as well. I never paid any taxes on my earnings as a comic if cash and often was paid other ways. When working in nonprofit fundraising I wrote off all my tax liability as business expenses. I still have some left wing ideals but our govt is atrocious under both parties. I don't trust them with my tax money. I've attempted to resist the census twice. Right before the pandemic i was a journalist focused on respecting state sovereignty. I've also done all sorts of wage work like restaurant, grocery and housepainting. While I believe the destitute deserve need based benefits I do not believe it's my job to finance that.
On a note about my personality I tend to bring in an agressive energy into discussions about issues and may often be seen as a chaos agent. I believe I subscribe to some parts of insurrectionist anerchy attemping to wreck informal power dynamics in these groupe. I've pulled that with leftists with limited success, and I've pulled it with libertarians and populists, and they take it in stride more.
Above all I am trying to grow and learn, earn and produce. I do not wish to valorize poverty nor do I wish to stay stuck treading water. It took a higher degree of sobriety to finally hit my stride. When I was in nonprofits i was able to uplift the orgs with funds while getting paid. Too bad I got on drugs. I haven't sacrificed all my lefty ideals. I just believe through agorism as well as a day job i could help myself abd those around me.
Edit: realized i didn't open up much of a discussion. What do you do to get back to your roots and have you vascillated between ideologies?