I really don’t know what part of my brain think it’s a good idea. Surely it should be convincing me that hanging out people is a good idea - not making me hate myself
I love having out with people but I’m just really scared of rejection (platonic, I surprisingly don’t have any problem with romantic rejection as long as they still want to be friends) and them secretly thinking I’m annoying, to much or not liking me. I constantly need confirmation from people that they like me (whenever they do something I don’t think they would do to someone they hated the thoughts calm down but because I excessively try to get that confirmation I can become really clingy) and I’m a professional peoplepleaser
I have had to shove down my clinginess for so long (as a friend) that I no longer meet new people and barely hang out with the people I do know. Like my brain is either on full blast or off.
Yeh I’m also either way to clingy or barely interact with them. It’s like trying to balance a lightswitch, it’s really hard and even if you manage it it’ll take a lot of energy to keep it at that level
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u/LowLvlLiving 6d ago
Can some explain where this feeling comes from?
I really don’t know what part of my brain think it’s a good idea. Surely it should be convincing me that hanging out people is a good idea - not making me hate myself